A Panic Attack
Me, around noon today, having had a difficult time with my partners the night before and struggling with residual feelings.
Me: He hasn't said anything since 530 last night.
EGO: YEAH. WE TOLD HIM NOT TO EXPECT A LOT OF TALK BECAUSE YOU'RE BUSY. STAY FOCUSED.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎H͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎m͎a͎d͎ ͎a͎t͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎ ͎-͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎b͎e͎e͎n͎ ͎s͎h͎o͎r͎t͎ ͎a͎n͎d͎ ͎q͎u͎i͎e͎t͎ ͎b͎e͎c͎a͎u͎s͎e͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎m͎a͎d͎ ͎a͎t͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎
Me: He's not mad. He's tired. And Ego said--
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎b͎i͎t͎c͎h͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎M͎A͎D͎ ͎a͎n͎d͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎g͎o͎n͎n͎a͎ ͎i͎g͎n͎o͎r͎e͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎ ͎a͎l͎l͎ ͎d͎a͎y͎
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: πΉππΈπ π½πΎπ. π»π πΉππππ'π ππΆππ ππ ππΆππ, ππ πΏπππ πππ'π ππΆππ. π»πππ, πΌ'ππ πΏπππ ππππ π·πΆπΈπ 'πͺπ¦'. π―π½πΆπ ππΎππ ππ½ππ π½πΎπ.
Me: IW, you're just being petty, stop that. Say something nice.
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π©π.
Me: He's going to get really mad about that, this isn't helping. Say something nice.
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π©π. π»π πΈπΆπ ππΆπ ππππππ½πΎππ ππΎπΈπ π»πΎπππ.
EGO: GET BACK TO WORK, YOU'RE WASTING VALUABLE TIME.
Me: Yeah, ok ok, I'm going.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎i͎t͎'͎s͎ ͎b͎e͎e͎n͎ ͎h͎o͎u͎r͎s͎.͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎d͎e͎f͎i͎n͎i͎t͎e͎l͎y͎ ͎c͎o͎l͎d͎ ͎s͎h͎o͎u͎l͎d͎e͎r͎i͎n͎g͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎.͎
Me: A, you've been saying that since we woke up this morning.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎W͎E͎L͎L͎ ͎H͎E͎ ͎I͎S͎.͎
Me: NO. No he's not. Just calm down.
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π΄ππ πππΎππ ππ πππ πΆ ππΆπ ππΆππ πππ π»πππ ππΎππ ππ½πΎπ πΆππΆπΎπ?
Me: I'm not.. this isn't... please stop. It's fine.
EGO: OK SO SINCE I CAN'T GET YOU TO FOCUS, LET'S THINK ABOUT IT.
Me: EGO! You're supposed to be helping me!
EGO: AND YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING, BUT HERE WE ARE.
Me: I'm sorry, it's just...
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎T͎H͎A͎T͎'͎S͎ ͎I͎T͎.͎ ͎T͎H͎E͎Y͎ ͎W͎A͎N͎T͎ ͎Y͎O͎U͎ ͎T͎O͎ ͎T͎A͎L͎K͎ ͎W͎H͎E͎N͎ ͎Y͎O͎U͎'͎R͎E͎ ͎M͎A͎D͎?͎!͎ ͎W͎E͎L͎L͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎S͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎ ͎H͎I͎M͎ ͎H͎A͎V͎E͎ ͎I͎T͎!͎!͎
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π΄ππππππππ, π½ππππ. πΏππ πΎπ πͺπ°π―.
Me: He hasn't said anything since 530 last night.
EGO: YEAH. WE TOLD HIM NOT TO EXPECT A LOT OF TALK BECAUSE YOU'RE BUSY. STAY FOCUSED.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎H͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎m͎a͎d͎ ͎a͎t͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎ ͎-͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎b͎e͎e͎n͎ ͎s͎h͎o͎r͎t͎ ͎a͎n͎d͎ ͎q͎u͎i͎e͎t͎ ͎b͎e͎c͎a͎u͎s͎e͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎m͎a͎d͎ ͎a͎t͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎
Me: He's not mad. He's tired. And Ego said--
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎b͎i͎t͎c͎h͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎M͎A͎D͎ ͎a͎n͎d͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎g͎o͎n͎n͎a͎ ͎i͎g͎n͎o͎r͎e͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎ ͎a͎l͎l͎ ͎d͎a͎y͎
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: πΉππΈπ π½πΎπ. π»π πΉππππ'π ππΆππ ππ ππΆππ, ππ πΏπππ πππ'π ππΆππ. π»πππ, πΌ'ππ πΏπππ ππππ π·πΆπΈπ 'πͺπ¦'. π―π½πΆπ ππΎππ ππ½ππ π½πΎπ.
Me: IW, you're just being petty, stop that. Say something nice.
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π©π.
Me: He's going to get really mad about that, this isn't helping. Say something nice.
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π©π. π»π πΈπΆπ ππΆπ ππππππ½πΎππ ππΎπΈπ π»πΎπππ.
EGO: GET BACK TO WORK, YOU'RE WASTING VALUABLE TIME.
Me: Yeah, ok ok, I'm going.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎i͎t͎'͎s͎ ͎b͎e͎e͎n͎ ͎h͎o͎u͎r͎s͎.͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎s͎ ͎d͎e͎f͎i͎n͎i͎t͎e͎l͎y͎ ͎c͎o͎l͎d͎ ͎s͎h͎o͎u͎l͎d͎e͎r͎i͎n͎g͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎.͎
Me: A, you've been saying that since we woke up this morning.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎W͎E͎L͎L͎ ͎H͎E͎ ͎I͎S͎.͎
Me: NO. No he's not. Just calm down.
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π΄ππ πππΎππ ππ πππ πΆ ππΆπ ππΆππ πππ π»πππ ππΎππ ππ½πΎπ πΆππΆπΎπ?
Me: I'm not.. this isn't... please stop. It's fine.
EGO: OK SO SINCE I CAN'T GET YOU TO FOCUS, LET'S THINK ABOUT IT.
Me: EGO! You're supposed to be helping me!
EGO: AND YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING, BUT HERE WE ARE.
Me: I'm sorry, it's just...
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎T͎H͎A͎T͎'͎S͎ ͎I͎T͎.͎ ͎T͎H͎E͎Y͎ ͎W͎A͎N͎T͎ ͎Y͎O͎U͎ ͎T͎O͎ ͎T͎A͎L͎K͎ ͎W͎H͎E͎N͎ ͎Y͎O͎U͎'͎R͎E͎ ͎M͎A͎D͎?͎!͎ ͎W͎E͎L͎L͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎S͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎ ͎H͎I͎M͎ ͎H͎A͎V͎E͎ ͎I͎T͎!͎!͎
πΌππππ ππππΆπ: π΄ππππππππ, π½ππππ. πΏππ πΎπ πͺπ°π―.
Me: No, no. Look that's not what they mean by any of this.. please..
EGO: .....
A͎N͎X͎I͎E͎T͎Y͎:͎ ͎I͎'͎M͎ ͎I͎N͎ ͎C͎O͎N͎T͎R͎O͎L͎ ͎N͎O͎W͎.͎ ͎W͎E͎'͎R͎E͎ ͎T͎E͎X͎T͎I͎N͎G͎ ͎H͎I͎M͎,͎ ͎A͎N͎D͎ ͎I͎N͎N͎E͎R͎ ͎W͎O͎M͎A͎N͎ ͎A͎N͎D͎ ͎I͎ ͎A͎R͎E͎ ͎G͎O͎I͎N͎G͎ ͎T͎O͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎ ͎H͎I͎M͎ ͎R͎E͎A͎L͎L͎Y͎ ͎H͎A͎V͎E͎ ͎I͎T͎!͎ ͎I͎ ͎M͎E͎A͎N͎ ͎W͎E͎'͎R͎E͎ ͎T͎E͎L͎L͎I͎N͎G͎ ͎H͎I͎M͎ ͎H͎O͎W͎ ͎D͎O͎N͎E͎ ͎W͎E͎ ͎A͎R͎E͎!͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎S͎ ͎L͎E͎T͎ ͎I͎T͎ ͎O͎--
**text from partner explaining quietness mid rant making the cacaphony of panicked and angry voices stop suddenly.**
Me: .............guys? Hello?
EGO: ....
anxiety: .....
Inner woman: .....
Me: OH COME ON. You guys are LITERALLY assholes right now.
EGO, anxiety, and IW: No hablo ingles.
Me: Fine. Fine. You want to do this? Well I'm going to let him see you.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎ ͎w͎a͎i͎t͎ ͎w͎a͎i͎t͎w͎a͎i͎t͎,͎ ͎i͎f͎ ͎y͎o͎u͎ ͎d͎o͎ ͎t͎h͎a͎t͎ ͎h͎e͎'͎l͎l͎ ͎s͎e͎e͎ ͎u͎s͎.͎
Me: Yup. Good job. Now he's going to see all the crazy.
a͎n͎x͎i͎e͎t͎y͎:͎.....
Me: That shut you up. Now I have to apologize and try not to step in it for two more days. Chill. Your. Shit.
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